The Ripple effect
Here we are in May already. Time is passing at a rapid rate.
I need to catch you up on things the Lord has been working with me on.
TRUSTING HIM... haha, imagine that! Who else has been dealing with this one on a day to day basis?
As He is leading me, daily, day to day, not allowing me a sneak preview of what my future holds, but just holding on , now. Being PRESENT with Him, in the present. not dwelling on the past, nor trying to fortel the future. As certainly we simply can not do.
I was in the process of buying a house. What a long drawn out process....what a roller coaster ride. (have I ever mentioned how roller coasters make me sick??) lol, well, this one did too. After months of ups & downs, the house FLOODED. (that's right, flooded) within a week of closing. the entire house was flooded. I had been praying; "God if this is not your will, PLEASE shut the door" He sure did!
I was physically ill as I accepted this realization. BUT, I also then felt a RELIEF. So I know it was the Lord, guiding me, since I am such a stubborn wilful child.
Then, I also had applied to the Sheriffs dept. About a month ago, I was told the position had been filled. So, I accepted the info and continued on with my day to day stuff. Then I got a call from a Detective for a 3 hour interview the following week.. WOW... I'm back in the running. So, I go to this interview with 2 Detective's, spend 3 hours and 45 minutes having a very transparent conversation about MY LIFE... YIKES.. oh let me tell you; it was hard to be HONEST with myself, let alone two total strangers. Things I had swept under the rug for YEARS had to be discussed. These two men now know more about me than any one human alive... only God knows 'the rest of the story'.
I had prayed that if the Lord wanted me in this position, that they would find favor with me, BUT, if the Lord did not want me there, that He would 'shut the door'... well, the door SLAMMED shut. The Detectives told me that I had indeed found favor with them, however, my past behaviors as a youth and in my early twenties was preventing me from being able to be hired. (I had quite the childhood!)
I again was CRUSHED... cried, and cried some more. It had been very painful to have to relive my childhood and then be rejected... THEN the Lord revealed me to me, He has a plan and purpose for my life... (Romans 8:28) Which I knew already, but once again, needed to be reminded of His everlasting love and compassion toward me, His child.
Don't we have compassion for and toward our own children? They may 'think' they know what is best, but simply can not understand, so we guide them toward 'the better choice'. This is what God has done for me. I PRAISE HIS HOLY, HOLY, HOLY NAME.
I have been reading in 2 Kings.. and realize that if the king were obedient to God, Worshipping the Lord, the people were blessed, including the kings family. BUT, if the king was wicked, the people in his kingdom were led astray, worshipping idols and giving in sexual behaviors & other wickedness. They were cursed and destroyed.... including the kings family. Sometimes this curse would not be immediate, but 1 or 2 generations later.
It is the 'ripple effect'.. such as when a pebble (sin) is tossed into a pond, the ripples continue for a long distance, then toss another pebble (sin) in and then there are double ripples.
The ripples of my childhood are affecting me now. some 35 yrs after the fact. Who would have guessed? certainly not me, especially when I was a child.
Today in church, the Pastor was talking about Truth, and being 'good' but compared to who? To what standard of good? another person, perhaps, but NONE of us compare to Christ's goodness.. He was /is sinless, NONE of us compare to Him. We are as filthy rags to the Lord.
Isa 64:6 NLT - We are all infected and impure with sin. When we display our righteous deeds, they are nothing but filthy rags. Like autumn leaves, we wither and fall, and our sins sweep us away like the wind.
But He clothes us in His white robe of purity & taking our sins upon Himself. That is love.
1Jo 5:21 NLT - Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God's place in your hearts.
More to come~
Peace be with you;
in Him;
Kim
Here we are in May already. Time is passing at a rapid rate.
I need to catch you up on things the Lord has been working with me on.
TRUSTING HIM... haha, imagine that! Who else has been dealing with this one on a day to day basis?
As He is leading me, daily, day to day, not allowing me a sneak preview of what my future holds, but just holding on , now. Being PRESENT with Him, in the present. not dwelling on the past, nor trying to fortel the future. As certainly we simply can not do.
I was in the process of buying a house. What a long drawn out process....what a roller coaster ride. (have I ever mentioned how roller coasters make me sick??) lol, well, this one did too. After months of ups & downs, the house FLOODED. (that's right, flooded) within a week of closing. the entire house was flooded. I had been praying; "God if this is not your will, PLEASE shut the door" He sure did!
I was physically ill as I accepted this realization. BUT, I also then felt a RELIEF. So I know it was the Lord, guiding me, since I am such a stubborn wilful child.
Then, I also had applied to the Sheriffs dept. About a month ago, I was told the position had been filled. So, I accepted the info and continued on with my day to day stuff. Then I got a call from a Detective for a 3 hour interview the following week.. WOW... I'm back in the running. So, I go to this interview with 2 Detective's, spend 3 hours and 45 minutes having a very transparent conversation about MY LIFE... YIKES.. oh let me tell you; it was hard to be HONEST with myself, let alone two total strangers. Things I had swept under the rug for YEARS had to be discussed. These two men now know more about me than any one human alive... only God knows 'the rest of the story'.
I had prayed that if the Lord wanted me in this position, that they would find favor with me, BUT, if the Lord did not want me there, that He would 'shut the door'... well, the door SLAMMED shut. The Detectives told me that I had indeed found favor with them, however, my past behaviors as a youth and in my early twenties was preventing me from being able to be hired. (I had quite the childhood!)
I again was CRUSHED... cried, and cried some more. It had been very painful to have to relive my childhood and then be rejected... THEN the Lord revealed me to me, He has a plan and purpose for my life... (Romans 8:28) Which I knew already, but once again, needed to be reminded of His everlasting love and compassion toward me, His child.
Don't we have compassion for and toward our own children? They may 'think' they know what is best, but simply can not understand, so we guide them toward 'the better choice'. This is what God has done for me. I PRAISE HIS HOLY, HOLY, HOLY NAME.
I have been reading in 2 Kings.. and realize that if the king were obedient to God, Worshipping the Lord, the people were blessed, including the kings family. BUT, if the king was wicked, the people in his kingdom were led astray, worshipping idols and giving in sexual behaviors & other wickedness. They were cursed and destroyed.... including the kings family. Sometimes this curse would not be immediate, but 1 or 2 generations later.
It is the 'ripple effect'.. such as when a pebble (sin) is tossed into a pond, the ripples continue for a long distance, then toss another pebble (sin) in and then there are double ripples.
The ripples of my childhood are affecting me now. some 35 yrs after the fact. Who would have guessed? certainly not me, especially when I was a child.
Today in church, the Pastor was talking about Truth, and being 'good' but compared to who? To what standard of good? another person, perhaps, but NONE of us compare to Christ's goodness.. He was /is sinless, NONE of us compare to Him. We are as filthy rags to the Lord.
Isa 64:6 NLT - We are all infected and impure with sin. When we display our righteous deeds, they are nothing but filthy rags. Like autumn leaves, we wither and fall, and our sins sweep us away like the wind.
But He clothes us in His white robe of purity & taking our sins upon Himself. That is love.
1Jo 5:21 NLT - Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God's place in your hearts.
More to come~
Peace be with you;
in Him;
Kim
